God, Take it Back

There’s always a moment in television where it can take you back to THAT place. I recently watched OWN’s Queen Sugar, "a contemporary drama set in Louisiana which chronicles the lives and loves of the estranged Bordelon siblings." In Episode 14 of Season 2, Aunt Violet (played Tina Lifford)  prays to God to take back all of the negativity in the home, including her Lupus diagnosis. I remember the day my husband was diagnosed with Lupus – we didn’t know what it was back in the late 90’s and we were both uncertain of what to do next. Our doctor, a woman of color, noticed that it was more than just ‘ringworm’ as we were told before by previous doctors. She took a biopsy, and the results devastated us. I will never forget that moment. My boys were young, and I knew they needed their daddy, a strong black man.

I went to God that day in prayer on the bedroom floor and replicated a portion of Aunt Violet's prayer, “...take it back, Lord or give it to me. Please God, hear my prayer.” I’ve had so many run-ins with brush-offs when it came to finding the right medical doctor. My young boys had asthma, and they always seemed to be ‘brushed off’ when obtaining care. What do I mean by this?