I Choose Life by Shawna Davis

I read a meme yesterday that read, “She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad.”This is true to my existence. I have always been a happy person who knew how to disguise her emotions well. Don’t get me wrong, emotions have a place and I feel they are very necessary. As I walk in this “new normal” daily I have made a conscious decision to live life and to live it fully. I wake up every morning thanking God and being grateful for another day. Losing my husband, I know you can all relate, was the hardest thing I had ever been through in life. As much as I wanted to crawl into a ball and never leave the house again I knew that was not an option. That was not an option for many reasons. The main reason was my faith in God and knowing that he doesn’t make mistakes, and everything has a purpose. I will be the first to admit that I don’t know what that purpose is, but I know that I trust Him and His Word. My second reason was my daughter. She struggled with the loss of her dad, the number one man in her life. I thought, how could I motivate her if I was living a lie? If I was trying to motivate and encourage her but I was unable to carry out what I was suggesting her to do. I never tried to disguise my hurt but instead I reminded her how he would want us to live, be happy and keep his memory alive. I told her it was nothing wrong with expressing her feelings or grieving but I didn’t want either one of us to get stuck there. I had made i